@TomStrasbourg I can pretty much snuff when ever i want because it is so simple and discreet, i dont need to go to the restroom, i can just do it anywhere in the house or in my room. The thing is storing it. My mom can get very ocd at random times about cleaning the house, and she might stumble upon my stash. Regardless i think i can manage a nice spot in my closet that wont be found, but then it just makes it a little harder to get out when i want it. Ive left tap boxes of poschls out countless times, and my parents are kinda old so they dont know what it is and it doesnt seem suspicious to them. A big bag of schmalzer would look very suspiscious though XD
Btw you claim to be an alcoholic, its kind of shocking when people openly admit it like that. Its one thing to be a drunkard, but ive met many alcoholics that hang out behind my place of work, very nice people, very sociable, and i never see them without a bottle, but the rare times i see them and they havent gotten their fix, it can be pretty scary, their complexion and the way they act. I hope you arent on this kind of level 
@Vito445 I’m not at that level but i bottomed out early. I was at my worst in my freshmen year of high school. Had to drink liquor everyday or I didn’t function. Lately I’ve been avoiding it. When I do start drinking though, its damn near impossible for me to stop. I ;have other vices that don’t make me throw up or black out now so it’s all good.
@TomStrasbourg I dont think I ever could not function without a drink
It’s an addiction, just like heroin, except it’s perfectly legal. However, unlike H, it destroys the liver and impairs cognition(thinking) over the long haul. It’s probably good to moderate your drinking TS, you’ll live longer and less long term health issues. I’m not preaching, please understand that. I am an ex-junkie and have been clean for 17 years so I know a little bit about recovery. That being said, I am a snuff junkie now. I hope it doesn’t kill me, but I accept the consequences of my actions. I know this is sort of o.t., but I had to respond. forgive me if I’m out of line.