I don’t mean this to discourage anyone, we’re all adults (or should be!) who make our own decisions. I’ve recently decided to quit oral tobacco (chew, dip, snus, chaw) both to save money ($40-$60 a month) and help my mouth recover (weak teeth as it is). Below is my “journal”, thoughts, experiences etc that I am running into as I go along. I started this last night (after realizing I had no more snus left)
10/27/16 11:00AM
I’ve chewed since I was 16, moved from Copenhagen, to Hawkens, to Camel, to Red Man, To General. Starting out at a can a week to a can every 3 days.
It’s been about 14 hours since I had my last chew.
I’m not sure if it’s coincidence or not, but I slept horrible last night, woke up all over the house, sleep walking, confused, disoriented.
Every 5-10 minutes I’m having a craving for a chew. My mind will be on something completely unrelated to tobacco, but I have the thought pop up in my mind of how I want a chew. I want it really bad. It’s almost agonizing.
I’ve been chewing on tooth picks like crazy for the physical aspect, and using strictly my homemade nasal snuff for the very much needed nicotine hit. I don’t plan to stop the Snuff as it’s the safest tobacco product, and does help me.
Both emotionally and physically.
I’m doing my absolute best to not become irritable. Try to stay kind, respectful of others, and focused on family, work, the farm etc.
I decided I would quit about a month ago, and broke down 3 times and continued. I finished my last one last night (on accident) and decided against continuing today.
Lord help me this is incredibly difficult.
3:39 PM
The cravings have been terrible. I’ve gotten to the point of being worked up, that I’ve smelled scents that weren’t there. Such as Pine, Ammonia etc. Very strong distinct scents that weren’t actually there.
I’ve gone through 45 tooth picks.
I took a very large hit of Snuff just now, about one thumb nail per nostril, and the cravings are more manageable.
I know this is the best for me, and for my wallet but this is just incredibly difficult.
Lord, I pray you guide me through this, and give me the strength to carry on.